Sometimes..

Sometimes I close my eyes and think of you

Sometimes you are one of the special few

Sometimes I wish we shared more than we do

Sometimes I feel I’ve bitten more than I can chew

Sometimes you seem so perfect to me

Those times you just set me free

But sometimes completely wrong it seems

During these times I’m not sure what it means

Sometimes too much care you show

And I just tend to go with the flow

But sometimes you just take it slow

As if, with me you want to grow

Sometimes there are words unspoken

Sometimes there are dreams too broken

Sometimes you show that love, that token

From a deep slumber I feel I’m woken

Sometimes there are things you say,

Leaving those few in the grey

You talk about how life went astray

And how you dealt with things your way

Sometimes I feel for you that love,

Pure and beautiful like that white dove,

But sometimes you’re just that good friend

Who God sent to me at one little bend

Sometimes I just miss you so much

Without having a reason as such

Sometimes I try and ask God why,

And all I get is a deep long sigh!

Sometimes there are these questions I have

Sometimes there are these things I want to grasp

Sometimes this uncertainty is killing

On whether I’m just trying hard to make things fit in

Now there is this path we have taken

That has left us both quite shaken

And even today after experiencing the exciting and the bland

I wish I could say I know where we stand..

The COW!

There was a time long ago, when India was known for snake charmers,

Ask anyone about this country, they’d say that and the land of farmers.

But now things have changed, a lot I must say..

No more are there snake charmers, always blocking the way.

With time, the trees went down, now there’re buildings everywhere,

And with that, reigns another being,

The ‘COW’ she is called, Oh! What a scare.

Middle of the road she’ll sit, with her big fat family

And not move an inch, let alone get up and flee!

You come right at them, thinking now they’ll budge,

But all that happens is their tail rising, and the next lot of fresh chocolate fudge!

It seems they mock me all along, having their own little party,

On seeing me so helpless, they have a laugh hearty!

I don’t know what’s their problem, guess they’re stuck with glue,

Every day on the roads, all I get is a sarcastic ‘Moo!’

*Rolling eyes*

Sigh!

The Next Fall

They bumped into each other, probably for the umpteenth time

And even today there was something they were desperately trying to hide

Words went unspoken, feelings unshared

To look into the other’s eyes, now they were so scared.

These eyes were once their homes, those deep pools of passion,

The love and care so evident, they were every problem’s solution!

There was once a time when nothing was left unsaid

There was no room for lies, hurt or even regret

They were often amidst a fight though; opinions poles apart,

But there wasn’t a moment when their love faded, just grew fonder in the heart.

Back then it seemed so pure, more precious than the sun’s rays,

How were they to know, one day they’ll go their separate ways..

Now that it’s over, no more speed dials, messages or calls

All they gotta do is be better prepared for their next fall..

One Last Shot..

You smile, you cry, your life you share

Some things you might hide, but your heart you pretty much bare

Lay them out on the table, for the other person to see

To become a part of your life, to understand and love thee

But sometimes it so happens, that things don’t pan out right

 After a point you feel like you’re fitting a lid too tight

Take a moment and think back, to the day it all started

Thought this is awesome, and forget the times so thwarted

All you can do is try your best, give it one last shot

And then leave it to God, to make it work or not

Ready to let it all go, forget the issues that were

Why did it go so wrong, is all you seem to wonder

You did what you could; you tried your level best

But God had other plans; there lay ahead one more test

It was just a matter of time, you suddenly realize

It’s never been clearer than right now, even through those teary eyes

There was no pretence involved, the emotions never fake

But in the end what matters is what path you finally take..

Change..

You know, sometimes in life some things happen that change you…subconsciously. More often than not, you don’t even realize the change..And one fine day, sitting all by yourself, it hits you. Well, something like that happened with me recently. And it led to a change of mind about a pretty crucial thing, a phase that comes in almost everyone’s life. So the only explanation I can think of maybe is too much conversation! If people around talk, talk and talk more about a certain thing, you perhaps do start thinking about it..as much as you might detest it at first. So I guess that’s what happened. And now, I’m pretty much getting used to it.

Now, I know you guys can kill me for this but I’m not going to reveal WHAT it is that has changed me..but all I can say right now is that..i THINK it is for the good.. yes..I think so..Now all we’ve got to do is wait and watch :) 

Bachpan

The red brick structure, that wise old tree,

I didn’t know the day I walked through those gates, it’d set me free..

The green iron gate that let us in,

Forgiveness it taught, even if we sinned..

That glass of milk we drank daily,

The games we played and slept barely..

Our heads leaning on the lunch table,

While our guardians told us those unbelievable fables.

The curtain-less washroom that smelt of phenyl,

Oh every moment there was worth its while!

The babaji who sold ice cream,

The glint in our eyes every time we beamed!

CBT and Triveni Kala Sangam,

Whenever it was required – that spanking on our bum!

The cricket we played,

The sand castles we made..

A world of our own it was,

They accepted us despite all our flaws..

The love they showered..unconditionally, not expecting anything in return..

How to be good humans, they made us learn.

There are many things I need to thank my parents for..

Lots of things they’ve done for me..

But the most important one for which I’ll be eternally grateful..

Was sending me there..to God’s own country..

A haven He created with his own two hands..

With no place for regret or blame.. Oh, it was a place grand!

Nowhere have I seen such purity, such magic

Where we learnt the art of ‘life’,

Got the strength to face things tragic..

Angels of God they were, for the service they did,

Turned us into fine young people, from those pesky little kids!

They’ll never realize how much they’ve done for us,

Everything from values and principles to operating the flush!

How I cried on my last day there,

Thought the best was over, that life wasn’t fair,

A feeling of being lost, not knowing what lay ahead..

Wished I could give up everything, and be back there instead..

But the patience they had showed and treated us like their own..

Today, I feel it in my every bone!

They say think of your parents when you’re in a fix, when there’s a worry

 I close my eyes, think of them and Saraswati Puri!

If God says to me, “Tomorrow you’ll die..What’s your last wish?”

I’ll take him to that wise old tree and say ‘bury me under this’..

So are you Punjabi ? Or Maharashtrian? Or Tamil?

Okay, so I am on Twitter.. And I follow iamsrk. Yes, since I'm a die-hard fan, I ought to be doing that! So, He's retweeted this one post which says "SRK chandigarh loves you big shout out !! Pls tweet or retweet if you love your north india fans x"

Now I'm thinking, what the HELL is wrong with people in India. I mean, agreed that Chandigarh is in North India, but why make it such an issue? I never knew Geography (that I always failed in) would play such a crucial role in some peoples' lives. Maybe the fact that I always failed actually keeps me from understanding this aspect! And I don;t regret it one bit!

So, this tweet got me thinking about all the reality shows hogging Telly-space these days and how they divide even something as pure as talent into Punjab, Gujarat and Bengal! 

"Agar aapko So-and-So ki performance pasand aayi ho toh Gujarati fans vote karien 57575 par" or after reaching the next round the contestant will say "Main poore Maharashtra ko Thank you bolna chahunga..."

Like really? Are WE the educated class of India? The future of this country who everyone has such high hopes from? Why do we ALWAYS have to get these divides in the midst of everything? 

I recently saw this new Ad of Incredible India on TV. And I loved it. All through our school lives we've been taught 'Diversity in India'

We are a mix of so many cultures! You visit any city, any state and you experience new things, different attire, a different language, different food. But, isn't that supposed to BIND US together? 

Then isn't this practice of introducing ourselves as "Hi,I'm Tanya and I'm from Punjab/Delhi/Gujarat" totally irrelevant? I mean, it really boils down to State-favoritism. Its okay to love a certain place, like, my mum adores Mumbai and I love Jaipur, but that's that man! We don't convert it to Anti-Mumbai or Anti-Jaipurmorchas!

For goodness sake, can't we just be mature for once and take it as another person's point of view rather than making it a political issue? I saw Peepli Live yesterday (Yes, I saw it NOW! - So late) and the CM says "Aap dekhiye Bengal mein kya ho raha hai, Gujarat mein kya ho raha hai, yahaan wahaan kya ho raha hai!"

Isn't that just an escape route from our responsibilities? Or do the citizens of this country really have nothing else to do so they just like to indulge in divide and rule?

Why do we have to stress on our 'State-ality' at all?!? Why can't we just be Indian?  

Or better still - why the Indian / Pakistani / Arab / English divide either?

Can't we just be HUMAN..?